Back to work blues

Well folks, it's been 4 weeks since my last day of work before surgery, and tomorrow I return to the trenches triumphant (well, not really, but I do return 35 lbs lighter!). I have to admit I am a little nervous to go back for a few reasons but mainly because that place is doused in FOOD! Over the last month I have had control over what I am faced with in my home but at work, junk is everywhere. I do have an incredible support group though, whom I miss SO MUCH (the only good reason to go back besides, well, that stupid little money issue) and I know they will all be there if I need them. I just hope that it doesn't hurt too much to know that those damn candy bars are in the file cabinet! Tonight I packed a weeks worth of breakfast and lunch all in one little lunch bag, kinda funny, but I wanted to be prepared and have all my meals portioned out so I wouldn't even have a reason to go to the cafeteria. I have been eating a little more bland lately especially since I have been on two very potent antibiotics for an infection in my nose. The meds are liquid and I have to take 4 tsps of each twice a day!  They are DISGUSTING and they are ripping my stomach apart so I have been constantly nauseated for 4 days now. Only 6 days left, fabulous.
Yesterday Tom, the kids and I went up to my brother and sister-in-law's house in Morgan to go swimming with the rest of my family.  I wore a new swimsuit which I think I looked pretty ok in and it felt good to not be totally self conscience. We BBQ'd and I had a half of a hot dog wrapped in a slice of cheese and a slice of tomato, yum! Quite different from the last time we were there when I had a double cheese burger topped with a hotdog on a hoggie bun, pasta salad, and homemade ice cream! The only crappy part of the day was when they broke out the cheesecake brownie and I watched everyone indulge in it. I know this is part of the deal but I do hope it gets easier someday.
Tomorrow Tom and I are going down to St. Marks in the evening for a support group class thing that I hear really helps with alot of issues. I am really looking forward to it and I'm glad Tom is coming with me. He has been such an amazing support, especially when he told me the cheesecake brownie wasn't really that good anyway! I want to take advantage of anything RMAP offers as far as classes or support groups because they really do help with the process and with this life change, you need all the help you can get!
I have absolutely no regrets about having the surgery and I am very pleased with the results so far. Not only the physical, but the way my little family is eating healthier and becoming more active. It makes me proud that I can be that kind of a leader and example for them and hopefully, when my kids are older, they can be proud of their mom and realize what I went through to help them. So, back to reality tomorrow, wish me luck!