THREE MONTHS!!!

This was a year ago! I made my mom promise to NEVER allow this picture to be shown! I look like I ate my "other" little sister! Ash is beautiful as always!

Wow, some girl ate Jenni!



Three Months post surgery!

So, I'm 3 months post surgery! I can't believe it's been that long! Sometimes I look at the above pictures and think that I still look that way and it makes me sick to my stomach. Lately it's been like head games, like I see people walking in the halls who are big and think, am I still that big and I have to get to a mirror fast to make sure I'm not. hunter (sorry, buddy had to type his name) I'm not being vain, but it does scare me to picture myself that way again. I remember the day we did those family pictures. I was so hot and sweating so bad and out of breath just from walking around the pond. My back hurt and I had a hard time sitting on the ground for my little family's turn. It was hell. After I saw the pictures I died. Did I really look like that? What kind of an example am I setting for my kids? No wonder people stare at us and whisper. Not OK! Today I'm not down to my 175 lb goal yet but I've lost at least 150 lbs since those pictures were taken (I'm sure I was well over 400 then) and that is something I can totally be proud of! My back hardly ever hurts anymore and I can walk just about any distance without getting winded! I don't get stared at anymore (although Tom thinks I do just cuz I look so "put together" all the time lol) and I am not embarrassed to walk into my daughters school at all! I don't mourn the loss of those 150+ lbs but I do have a hard time wrapping my head around it sometimes. So if you see me checking myself out in the mirror, I'm not doing it because I like looking at myself, I'm doing it to make sure I haven't woke up yet!
My diet still consists of 2 oz per meal but I have been venturing out a little on what I eat. My friend Kristi gave me an awesome recipe for cauliflower cheesy bread that is AMAZING and I continue to try to find GB friendly recipes. My new favorite snack is a quarter of a slim jim dipped in cream cheese mmmmmmm! I still eat a lot of cottage cheese, beans and turkey burger but I have tried to do variations of these for variety sake!
A week ago I joined Curves! I love it! The exercise is easy but I can totally feel it and I lost about 10 lbs the week I joined! We probably are not going to do the pool during the winter because it just gets too cold to walk to the car after class so Curves will be my main exercise. We also purchased a Wii and the Just Dance game which is AWESOME exercise and Hannah and I can do together that is totally FUN!! It was well worth the $$$.
I am thrilled with my progress thus far and I continue to appreciate all the kindness, compliments and support from my family, friends and co-workers! It doesn't get old hearing every day that I'm melting! I will never regret my decision to have the surgery, especially after seeing those pictures and remembering the way my body felt a year ago! If anyone out there is contemplating this surgery or knows someone who is, encourage them to just GO FOR IT! It is still the greatest decision I have ever made!!!!

Dear diary....

Ok I am slacking way too much on this blog deal! It's like, remember in Jr. High when you would get a new  diary and the first page would read, sept. 1, 1987 dear diary... I am totally going to write in you every day! It will be so rad to read this in the future when I'm married to kirk cameron! Yadda yadda... Next page, Sept 1, 1990 WOW! It's been like 4EVER! I cant believe I wanted to marry Kirk Cameron! What a total dweeb I was! Everyone knows Keanu is my future hubby! It's my last year of Jr. high and I have a feeling it will be the best year ever! 9th graders rule the school! Page 3,  June 26, 1997 holy crap it's been awhile!  9th grade sucked! Tomorrow I'm getting married! Not to Kirk or Keanu....

You get the idea. But I honestly do want to try to keep this updated as much as possible... for reals!
So, as far as my GB goes, all is well. Things are moving a little slower then I had anticipated, but I'm trying to look at the big picture which is 132 lbs gone! I am feeling wonderful, and loving my new body so far! Yesterday I was walking home from getting Hannah at the bus stop, but she went with her Aunt Kathy instead so I was alone and one of my dear friends came out of her house and didn't recognize me!! That is amazing to me! She gushed over me for a few minutes (which I, of course, reviled in) and we had a lovely visit. Things like that remind me that this IS working, and giving it some time is not a bad thing. I also went to water aerobics last night for the first time since surgery and it kicked my vanilla booty but it felt amazing! One thing I noticed was that doing kick down, kick outs made all the loose skin on my legs and thighs jiggle and was the weirdest feeling! I loved the workout and can't wait to go again tonight!
I'm eating about the same and its getting boring! I did get a new recipe from my awesome cousin Alicia called zucchini pizza and I love it! It's basically pizza toppings on a piece of zucchini (preferably a large one) and it's delicious! I still have cravings and right now it's peanut butter! I eat about a teaspoon a day which helps but a nice PB&J sandwich would be awesome!
Well dear diary, that is all for now. I will write again very soon! (hopefully before I'm retired!) Love, Jen.