The "skinny" on our family's journey from FAT.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

What was I thinking????

Seriously, I should never write a post while I am at work! I mean, who WAS that person yesterday? I'll tell you who it was, it was grumpy work Jen and, while usually work Jen is generally pleasant, yesterday she was a big crab apple! I guess it is ok to see the ugly side of GB though, and it is a daily struggle to maintain the cheerfulness when all you want is a friggin pumpkin chocolate chip cookie! Ok, I'm not going there again today. I promised a happy post and I always keep my promises!
The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions. I turned 35 on Halloween and I was totally ok with it! I have dreaded this birthday for so long but, due to my current circumstance of feeling like I'm 25, thirty five didn't really bother me! I have accomplished so much over the last year and I am pretty proud of myself and my family. We have become stronger as a family unit, healthier and happier and that is really all I could ask for!
A couple of weeks before thanksgiving my sweet little grandma Carol (my mommy's mommy) got pretty sick. I was devastated because I was always so close with my grandma, especially when I was younger. Grandma's main goal in life, pertaining to me that is, was to get me skinny! When I was a teenager she would always tell me, "Jenni, if you don't get skinny, you will never find a husband!" Now, you might think, "how rude!" but i know that she was only doing it because she knew how awesome I was and what the world is truly like. She did everything to motivate me to lose weight, from paying for me to join curves for a year, to bribing me with a dollar a pound and a new wardrobe! The lady was hellbent on seeing me healthy. Even after I managed to find a man who also saw how awesome I was, she still worried about my health. I know my grandma loved me, probably more then all of her other 21 grandchildren (now, I know some of you read this so just deal with it... lol) and I know she was proud of me no matter what my size was, but I always wanted her to see OUR dream come true. I was fortunate enough to see my grandma a week before she died, when she was still lucid and the very last words she spoke to me in a whisper were, "my jenni, you look absolutely beautiful and I am so proud of you, I always knew you could do it." A week later we said goodbye to that amazing talented loving lady and I will miss her every day until we are together again. I am so grateful that she, of all people, got to see me healthy and happy (though I should have taken her up on that whole dollar a pound deal... I'd be up to $185!) I love you G and thank you for always believing in me!
With all of the grandma stuff going on, we had TONS of family in town during the week of thanksgiving! I was able to spend time with my favorite Aunts and cousins that I haven't seen in far too long (we're not going to let that happen again! Yeah, I'm talking to you Penny, Angie, Lindsey, Kimm, Kathy and Allison!) and I loved it! Family is what it is all about, and I have the greatest family on the planet! I consider myself so lucky that I am so close with cousins on both sides of my family and everyone should be totally jealous of our closeness, cuz it ROCKS! My awesome family has been such a huge support to me during this whole process and I can never express enough how thankful I am for ALL of them!
Thanksgiving itself wasn't as hard as I thought it would be food wise. I ate a tiny bit of turkey and some of my mom's broccoli cheese casserole (without the crunchy topping of course) and dessert, well dessert was hard, I can't lie about that but all in all, I spent more time taking pictures of my wonderful family and didn't really think that much about the food! And I truly appreciate all of them putting up with my obnoxious camera in their faces cuz it did really help take my mind off the rolls and potatoes and gravy!
Now were are gearing up for Christmas! One thing that I have noticed is I am ALWAYS FREEZING! I mean, I lost a whole stinkin person that used to keep me all nice and toasty and now I can't ever seem to get warm! Oh well, I'll take it over not being able to move any day!
I will never regret my decision to have gastric bypass, and even though I have days like yesterday where I just feel like I am being deprived of everything Delicious, the results are worth it. When I see my Hannah choosing healthy snacks or when I see my husband getting his grove thang on playing just dance or getting a beautiful note from a friend telling me how I inspire her, I remember why I truly chose to do this... Not for beauty, not for vanity, not even necessarily for MY health, I did it show anyone who cared to follow my journey that if I can do it, if I can beat this disease and addiction, if i can lose 200 lbs, then so can they! I want to be the best Jenni I can be, for my children and my husband and if I can help motivate even 1 person to be the best THEM they can be, then all the pumpkin chocolate chip cookies in the world couldn't make me go back to June and NOT make that choice!
And now, Pictures!
Thanksgiving morning

my niece Mandy took this awesome angle shot!

I am the luckiest mama!

Awww! Aren't we adoreable!

My beautiful cousin Allison

Bestest buddies
look at that face!
My mommy and her sisters.

I love hannah's foot in this picture!

Grandma Sally and her Hunter

all of our red-heads!

seriously, we are so HOT!

My daughter is absolutely beautiful!

The Robinett women (minus Jessica and Karla)
Allison, Ashlee, Kathy, me, mom, Angie, Penny, Kimm and Lindsey


My sisters! Me, Tiffany, Amanda and Ashlee

I love this beautiful lady!

We took Hannah to see Ballet West's Nutcracker! She LOVED it!

can't wait for it to start!

intermission at the ballet lol.

they are BROTHER AND SISTER people! EWWW!

we are a very touchy feely kinda family!

Tom took this cuz he said I looked "super hot!"

we managed to get the tree up even with all the death stuff!
what cuties!

Hunter and Jack-Jack

this was a mothers day card I made for her a few years ago and she had it framed. I will miss her so much.
I LOVE my sibs! Me, Nic, Johnny, Logan and Ash

Grandma loved scrabble!!!!!

Hannah saying goodbye.

Hunter saying goodbye.

I love you grandma.

Beautiful picture... terrible backdrop! lol

I had to add this cuz we were all laughing and making fun of all the old guys and telling them not to drop her and the mortuary people said they had never had a family laugh during this part and we said, "you've never met the Robinetts!" Also, when they set the casket down my Uncle Randy said, "that's it, she's going on a diet first thing Monday!" I LOVE my family!!!

This is what happens when you give your brother your camera!

we were all trying not to fall in the hole!

All the Robinett cousins exept for Zack! We missed you Zack!

Uncle Tim, mommy, Aunt Penny, Uncle Randy, Aunt Kathy & Uncle Jeff

Sweet babies

1 comment:

Marie Rose said...

seriously Jenni.... you look ah-mazing! every time i see a picture of you I'm shocked. You look so beautiful! You go girl! I'm so sad to hear about your grandma. I love that lady. I remember always going to her house and swimming in the pool. Oddly, i always remember her having a treat in her pocket for Logan when he was a baby. She'd always come over and Logan would say "what's in your pocket?" and she would miraculously pull out candy EVERY TIME! I also remember her trying to get Logan to say potato chip. He called them lalalala (or something to that effect while rolling his tongue around his mouth) and she would insist he said "potato chip!" it never worked and i remember just laughing. ahhh good time. Anywho, love your face. Keep it up. You are a rock star!